09 October 2002
a bit out of control
what a cruddy, cruddy evening last night. i just lost it. i felt mad, sad, depressed, scared... was up until 2 with complete insomnia, kept my sweetie up, too. bleh. it was really awful and i felt so out of control with it.
sitting here, gotta get to class soon, and, oh joy of joys, work on my paper tonight. my motivation is NILL right now. absolutely. TV? my friend. the internet? oh yes, my friend. school? the enemy. definitely.
honestly, i'd drop out if i had an alternate career plan. if i hadn't sunk 3.5 years into this already.
dandlioneyes at 9:06 am