10 February 2005
pasta: solution to the world's greatest problems
i have had such an incredibly mellow day, mood wise. which isn't a good thing. pms-emotional for one, and somehow just awfull stressed about the future.
i am not very good about making decisions. i never have been. so the question remains: how will i decide if i want to leave academia? what other options are there? how does one know when a right decision is the right one? i'm not liking what i am doing now. i have alarm bells going off telling me not to do it. fine, then, that's something i am listening to. but do i love other things? i know a 9-5 desk job will make me unhappy....
and i know that, when the time comes, i'll want to spend some time home with a child as well, NOT working. how did you mothers out there do that? i've worked at a daycare center (4 years), and i know the kids do very well if the center is a good one. that isn't the issue as much as my wanting to raise my child - when the time comes. how did you do it with your careers? what were your preferences? how did it all work out?
and then my hubby is going through job anxieties right now too - two interviews next week, lots of traveling - and i have no idea where we'll end up. lots of unknowns, but i guess lots of excitement as well.
ack so much angst. how ridiculous. that said, we made a kick-asss pasta sauce from scratch (with LOTS of garlic, with sun dried tomatoes, with tomato paste, with olives, with ground beef) - should be delicious! and tomorrow is another day. funny how food tends to solve my problems, ... at least temporarily!
dandlioneyes at 5:36 pm